In recent years, I didn't use Chinese as much and I quits I used to, and I stopped using Japanese for 2 years since after graduationg.

Mostly it's because it offered me a place to catch a breath from the trauma of East Asian culture.

I sometimes imagine I'm an American girl, and thinking about what will an American would do or say.

As if I don't need to be sad about being a daughter and can be raised being cherished.

Why English?

In recent years, I didn't use Chinese all that much, and I had quit using Japanese for 2two years since my graduation.

Mostly, it's because it offered me a place to catch a breath from the trauma of East Asian culture.

I sometimes imagine that I'm an American girl, ands well as thinking about what will an American would do or say.

AIt's as if only when I'm speaking English, I can be strong, confident, aggressive or honest.

AIt's as if I can say I want something, and that I will fight for it, without feeling bad.

AIt's as if I don't need to be sad about being a daughter, and can be raised while being cherished.

I used to wish that I haved multiple personalities like Billy Milligan, but now, I have already gaiven up on that idea.

However, foreign languages ghave given me another chance to have different identities, and to become someone differentelse.

Why English?

In recent years, I didn't use Chinese much, and I quit using Japanese for 2two years since graduation.

Instead, I usedhave been using English more often.

MostlyFor the most part, it's because it offered me a place to catch a breath from the trauma of East Asian culture.

I sometimes imagine I'm an American girl, and thinking about what will an American do or say.

As if only wWhen I'm speaking English, I can be strong, confident, aggressive, or honest.

As if I can say I want something and will fight for it without feeling bad.

As if I don't need to be sad about being a daughter and can be raised being cherished.

However, foreign languages gave me another chance to have different identities, and to become someone different.

In recent years, I didn'haven’t used Chinese much and I quivery often. I haven’t usinged Japanese for 2 years since I graduationed two years ago.

By “Chinese,” do you mean 普通话, Cantonese, or a different dialect that you spoke in childhood? Do you mean that you speak your first language less often? I think I translated this correctly but if I can make this clearer, I would love to help!

Instead, I used’ve been English more often.

Mostly it's because it has offered me a place to catch a breathrespite from the trauma of East Asian culture.

A common synonym for “respite” is “breather.”

I sometimes imagine I'm an American girl, and thinking about what will an American would do or say.

As if oOnly when I'm speaking English, I can I be strong, confident, aggressive, or honest.

As if I can say I want something and will fight for it without feeling badguilty.

You can say “feeling bad,” but “feeling guilty” is more specific.

As if I don't need to be sad about being a daughter and. I can be raised beinglifted up and cherished.

In English, when talking with strong emotions, shorter sentences sound more powerful.

I used to wish I haved multiple personalities like Billy Milligan, but now I already gave up that ideaI don’t feel that way anymore.

I don’t think it will be a problem yet, but some English speakers find the phrase “multiple personalities” offensive. Modern English speakers describe Billy Milligan as having dissociative identity disorder (DID).

However, foreign languages gave me another chance to have a different identitiesy, to become someone differentelse.