Read it doesn't mean speak it

Reading it doesn't mean speaking it.

Although I can understand pretty well English texts, it's really hard for me speak it or write it.

Although I can understand English texts fairly/ pretty well, it's really hard for me to speak or write it.

or

it remains difficult for me to speak or write it/ in English.

or

it is challenging for me to speak or write in English

I was impressed of myself, I've the expectation of do it terrible.

I was impressed with myself. I didn't think I would be able to make sense of it (the manual).

In a scale from 1 to the 5, my skill to read is maybe 2, 3 with luck.

On a scale from 1 to 5, I would rate my reading ability to be about 2 or 3 on a good day.

But if we talk about how do I speak, it's a terrible 1.

But if we were to rate my speaking ability, it is a terrible 1.

My pronunciation is clumsy but I get it sometimes with simple sentences, for example "Hi, how are you?.

My pronunciation isn't the best, even with simple sentences like "Hi, how are you?"

I feel so uncomfortable hearing "that person" talking so rude.

I feel so uncomfortable when a person is rude about my pronunciation.

(sorry I'm not 100% sure what you meant.)

Your English is pretty well, I'm sure you can do it better"

Your English is quite good, I'm sure you can speak better than this.

Despite this, my skill to write is less than 1.

Others might think that I'm just not trying hard enough (which is not true), but even then my writing skills are less than 1.

It's like my brain collapse saying "I'm out, good luck".

It's like my brain turns around and says "I'm out, good luck."

So I need to "exercise" this part to get the habit and do it naturally.

to develop this habit/ to adopt this habit

Every time I write something I have a bad feeling.

Every time I write something in English, I feel bad.


having a bad feeling about something example:

I had a bad feeling about leaving the house that day.

"a thousand times.

It's as if a voice inside my head is screaming repeatedly/ a thousand times: "Help! I'm scared! I'm not sure!"

But I can't delete that feeling from my head.

But I can't escape this feeling
But even then I can't shake this feeling
But even then I can't get rid of this feeling
But even then I can't stop this voice inside my head.

Talk about it is a good way to share something in a healthy way, get out the feelings and reflect about it.

Talking about it (anxiety) is a good way to offload some of our burdens in a healthy way. It allows us to get our feelings out and to reflect on them.

And I want to do it too.

And I want to help others like she helped me.

Why do I want it if I have mental problems?

Why do I want to treat others when I have my own (fair share of) mental health problems?

Because I can understand some things.

Because these days I feel that I understand mental health problems better. I can relate to others with mental health problems.

I said to myself many times "No ones understand it!

no one understands it

no one is he/ she/ it form
(I feel like) no one understand me
no one understood me at that time
He feels like nobody understands him
He felt like no one understood him

I understand
you understand
he/ she/ it/ no one understands
we understand
they understand

", but if someone say it to me, I'll say "I understand what are you saying, it's terrible but you can do it".

But if someone were to tell me about their problems, I will say "I understand what you are saying, it's terrible but you can do it/ overcome this.

Cheer up people when it's hard cheer up myself.

I can cheer up other people even when it's hard for me to cheer myself up.
I can cheer other people up even when it's hard for me to cheer myself up.

I can put a happy smile and a sweet calm voice, just for it.

I can put on a happy smile/ brave face and speak in a calm voice, just for it/ in order to be of support to others.

Sometimes people say that I talk about it "to be a poor victim.

Sometimes people say that I am playing a victim when I open up about my insecurities/ anxiety/ depression.

A poor glass child trying to call the attention".

That I'm a fragile child seeking attention

to be an attention seeker --> that I'm just being an attention seeker, that I don't have any problems.

But I don't.

But I'm not.

I want people know and understand how is it.

I want people to know and understand what it's like.

You can use an expression here: to walk a mile in my shoes

I want people to know and walk a mile in my shoes because.... e.g. that way they may understand mental illness better.

That they can remember and reflect about mental problems, recognize it and understand that isn't normal or okay treat that way a child or other people.

They can be educated and reflect upon mental illness/ mental health/ mental problems, and come to recognise that it's not normal or okay to treat a child that way or other people.

to treat can also be to let a child suffer in silence this way or other people

It's like a open journal maybe.

It's like an open diary maybe

So, I can write what I want to, this freedom is nice.

So, I can write what I want to; this freedom is nice.

It allows me to write anything and to feel some freedom/ relief at the same time. This freedom is nice.

Read it doesn't meaning is not the same as speak iting

I corrected this to fit with what you seem to mean while also remaining short and simple

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What do you think about the food?.

This sentence does not follow what you already said. Is this another example of a simple sentence you can say? I don't get it.

I feel so uncomfortable hearing "that person" talking so rudely.

Who? You can't just suddenly say "that person" when there is no context. Again, this does not really make sense following what you already said.

"Your English is pretty well,good; I'm sure you can do it better."

DeIn spite of this, my skill to write is less thanwriting skills are below 1.

It's like my brain collapsegiving up and saying, "I'm out, good luck".

As a future psychologist, I understand that we use different areas of our brain to do different things.

So, I need to "exercise" this part to get theform a habit and do speak and write naturally.

I'm talking about this because I feel insecure.

Every time I write something, I have a bad feeling.

It's like someone screaming, "I'm scared!

People isare nice here,; no one laughs.

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But, I can't delete that feeling from my head.

Talk about iting is a good way to share somethings in a healthy way, get out the feelings, and reflect about iton them.

Why do I want to be a psychologist?

She did it in theat my worst moment.

And I want to do it too.

I want to help someone as shelike she did.

Why do I want ito do this if I have mental problems?

I said to myself many times "No ones understands it!

", but if someone says it to me, I'll say, "I understand what are you saying,; it's terrible but you can do it".

CI can cheer up people when it's hard to cheer up myself up.

I can put on a happy smile and a sweet, calm voice, just for ithem.

ButAt the same time, inside I'm broken, working on it, but suffering at the same time.

In general it's best to not start sentences with "but", especially so often in such a short space.

Sometimes people say that I talk about it "to be a poor victim."play the victim" or be

I left this sentence incomplete to connect with the next line.

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I'm not quite sure what you mean by "glass child" as that is not a common expression in English.

But I don'tThat is not what I am doing.

I want people to know and understand how ist its.

That they can remember and reflect abouton mental problems, and recognize it and understand that it isn't normal or okay to treat that way a child or other people that way.

This is a safe space where I can post somethings and learn at the same time.

It's sort of like an open journal maybe.

So, I can write what I want to,; this freedom is nice.