過去の自己と同意しない話題は何ですか

ティーンエイジャーのとき私は「全部が出来るよ、時間の問題だけだ」と思いましたが今は違うと思います。
例えば足がないの方々は走るのホントの感じが出来ません、毎日自分を前に押し進める感覚。(実は私も感じができません、無効ですから）
私も神経学的問題がありますですからプロゲーマーにいけません、どんなに努力しても出来ません。
その時「大丈夫、一年、二年、三年、何でもいいよ」と言ったですが改善はありませんでした。
でも今は色々道が閉まると新しい道が開くと思ういます。はい、プロゲーマーになりませんでしたがプログラマーになりました、翻訳者もなりたい今は。考えることが出来なら大丈夫です

When I was a teenager, I thought, "I can do everything, it's only a matter of time." but now I think differently.
For example, those who have no legs can't really feel running, the feeling of pushing yourself ahead everyday. （Actually I also can't feel it because I'm a disabled)
I also have neurological problems, so I can't be a professional gamer, no matter how hard I try.
At that time, I said, "That's alright, one year, two years, three years, whatever it takes." but there was no improvements.
But now I think that new ways will open when other roads are closed. Yes, I didn't become a professional gamer, but I became a programmer, now I want to be a translator. As long as you can think, everything will be alright.

(For whoever reads this: I feel like when I'm trying to deliver my thoughts in Japanese they become way worse, and when I'm trying to figure out how to translate text that I written in Japanese to English the idea that I was trying to deliver changed even more, maybe I should try to write English version first and then try to translate it to Japanese? The other problem that I think in Russian, and I can't say that I'm good with English, but at least way better compared to Japanese P.S Don't look at my native level English on this website, I just miss-clicked and can't change it anymore :D )